it’s 3am right now. and im reflecting on myself. i just watched interviews on the cast of glee.. but right now, what i’m gonna blog . . .
has nothing to do with it
i have a crush on mark sailing btw :) have him on my twitter! just wish he knows my existence.
i was just thinking about my last presentation in TP. how i pushed myself (with the honest advice and support of two of my grpmate) to do my best in the last presentation ever.
i’ve managed to achieve the greatest sucess, for me. it was my dream to finally do it after i got into the stupid public speaking class. the dream was to hear my lecturer going “you’ve improved the most in terms of presentation skills” and “best presenter goes to geraldine”. the ulitmate dream was to hear my audience (lecturers) clapping for me after my presentation, clapping and laughing, because they enjoyed and understood my final punch line. the best feeling of all, is proving to my peers that i did it when they say i can’t.
i achieved all of that.
one day i really love to share this feeling with my love one. all i wanna do is share this feeling. i guess i have to remind myself that
i just came back after a huge dinner, chilli crab, scallops, sweet&sour pork etc etc. damn cheap la.
80 bucks only.
anyways, i was telling mum, eh mummy, i going down cycle awhile.
she was “orh go loh”
then suddenly, i felt scared, cos like it’s quiet and dark downtains (it’s 9.30 pm btw). and there’s like only one or two ppl walking ard. some ah beng hanging ard my block also. i scared got robber (sometimes i jsut get scared ok!) >=(
so i told my mum ” huh can accompanhy me? i scare got robber.”
she replied “dont want! i very tired. you think you 10 years old ah..still need to see you cycle”
me : if got robber how?
mother : just say hi loh!
the way she said it was just very sarcastic and funny
my friend was like “i just came back from shopping from giant” @ 12.30 am
it triggered my memory on how you said “one day you’ll bring me to giant to stock up my hse with snacks.” cos im always at stay complaining im hungry. that day never came
i’m just surprise how things can do a 180 on me so quickly, and like now… im pondering, what was i to all those ppl who did that 180.
"Nothing lasts" - Curious Case of B.Buttons
actually i knew i was a bitch. i was too serious in being in a r/s that i forgot to enjoy and appreciate. i was always demanding cos my expectations were too high. or actually, it take two hands to clap right? so to put it crudely, he wasn’t good enough to meet my expectation. whether it’s high or not, that’s subjective. :)
now i learnt, the next guy will be the luckiest son of bitches cos he’ll have the fucking best gf EVER
im so crude. i’m gonna change. i’ll use less fuck-words (YAH RIGHT)
now i just hate how these 180people (im gonna call them 180 people), treat me like.. shit.
*fyi it’s said as “one eighty” not “one hundred and eighty” *
well ok not THAT bad, it’s just different from how they talk to me last time. well i guess it’s like DUHH, when ppl like you, they talk to you differently, when they dont, you’re not even on their ”list”. it’s how people interact.
how fake right? oh now you like me, no wonder so nice. oh now you dont? oh GO TO HELL
Nparks email-ed me requesting for higher resolution copies. I highly doubt i’ll win. But i hope i win the “quirky-titles” category or smth, cos one of my pictures i go and name it ” My Friendly Frequent Toilet Guest”.
It was just a picture of a tiny flying insect. a shitty photo. the subject took up only 0.01% of the pic! LOL. it’s like a mole on the photo.
One picture even had my leggings in the bloody frame. sure PHAIL.